Primark Jumper, Motel jeans, Georgia Rose boots (c/o Sarenza)
I finally remembered I had these boots after searching for something to wear on my feet to London, it’s a bit of a squish getting my poorly foot in to them but they make a change!
This isn’t really an outfit post as such, I wore these jeans for all of 15 minutes before realising I’ve finally gained enough weight to almost outgrow an item of clothing…so off they came, and on to the “for sale” pile where they have already found a worthy new owner and I shall be investing in something that fits my new figure once the rest of the weight has gone on.

It’s hard, to remain so positive about a changing body when mostly people see weight gain as a negative thing. It’s harder still when you are trying to reverse ten years of ingrained behaviours for the last time; no more going back and forth in recovery, this is the final push. I’ve never been so motivated or so excited for life. I can’t explain what’s changed, I guess growing up and the tragic events of this year have given me that final *ping* in my head that I needed to actually do this…as anyone recovering from anything knows, you can only do it for real when it’s for yourself first and foremost. Negative/saddened tweets aside, I am enjoying this journey and keep remindnig myself that sometimes it’s ok to go against the grain, sometimes weight gain for health reasons is needed and there is nothing wrong with that. Life is too damn short to to keep listening to that evil little voice in my head. This is time for the real me, for Laura to shine.

Sorry for getting so personal in this post, I’m probably a chronic over-sharer and wonder if sometimes I give too much away and that the world knows far too much about me. I guess I wanted to get out there, again, what I am doing. Soften the blow of my changing shape perhaps; or maybe I’m just re-affirming it to myself what I have achieved and have yet to achieve. This blog has been a real documentation of my journey especially over the last two turbulent years, and although it may seem otherwise when I do sponsored posts and reviews this blog is for me, myself and I primarily. It still blows me away that so many people read/follow/want to work with me, I’m just a girl from a town nobody has ever heard of who can’t compare to 99% of bloggers out there style and interest-factor wise (who is also chronically insecure). For someone once so camera phobic and painfully shy I’d go so far to say as this blog has proven life changing.

I’ll leave you with this photo of Mae, a peace offering, and I promise not to take offense if you skipped over the lengthy text of this post.

Happy Friday! Any fabulous weekend plans? I’ll be back to my usual self tomorrow.

xxx

P.S. sorry for the appalling writing style in this post, as ever my blogging is done early morning and as each post gets published I doubt my writing ability more and more, oops!